the loss of a friend

another super bowl come and go. i was rooting for the steelers only because i hope i get into their law school. i applied to a school in seattle also, but something keeps drawing me back to pitt. don't get me wrong though, i love seattle. nate fisher is from seattle. speaking of, kim and i saw one of the most disturbing episodes of six feet a few nights ago. it's a fourth season episode that mainly involves david. i think the episode was called "find my dog." for those that have seen it, that should be enough to remember which one i'm talking about. and i'm having the most enjoyable time seeing claire "experiment." i just love it. back to the super bowl, it was decent i guess. the commercials sucked except for some financial investment ones (doctor killing the fly with the shock thing, woman straddling the guy on the plane) and the chimp ones having go do with some job website. those are always good.

at night when i watch my movies, kim is usually sleeping so i'm forced to keep the volume low. it's just low enough where i can barely make out what they are saying so i usually turn on the subtitles. some hate subtitles, but i feel no shame in using them. don't be afraid people.

Crash (2005): not bad, not bad. reminds me of magnolia (e.g. set in l.a., amy mann type music, huge case, stories interweaving in and out, frogs/snow). also felt like i was watching an hbo show. this actually would be a pretty good show. but all this has been said and done back in the late 90s so this is a little after its time. and like magnolia, the movie left me with a few unanswered questions about how the characters’ stories were resolved. what’s the movie about you ask. a lot of really shitty things happen to a bunch of really evil people, and they sit and wonder why it happens. then there are a few good people who sell out, and crappy things happen to them. and finally there are a few good people who really don’t do anything bad, but still bad things happen to them. the moral of the story seems to be that l.a. is a crappy place with crappy inhabitants and basically hell on earth. of course in the end most learn their lesson or repent and redemption wins the day. it's really good, but not worth a best picture nomination for ’05. 1999 maybe. i love l.a. movies that really bring in the city as a character of its own. cali folks will appreciate it. see it.

kim is going to vegas this weekend with jax. supposedly jax's mom or something knows someone who can get free tickets to that mama mia musical and celine dion. on six feet, george cut the branches and leaves off of a tree that nathaniel planted for claire on her tenth birthday. ruth of course flipped out on george. well, as mentioned before, my plant of oh, say eight years now, was left outside and froze one day while i was back east. my mom found it while kim was out of town. my mom then took it out and replaced it with some cactus thing. of course that was a nice gesture, but i really wish she would have just kept it and maybe i could have brought it back to life. or at least tried. i realize that she didn't know and she was only trying to help, but i look at this cactus thing on my desk and have no care for it. i haven't watered it since i've been home and can't even bare to look at it. it's not my plant and never will be. maybe i'll just give it to my mom to have. my living, breathing friend that i tried to take care of for so many years is just gone now. i know it's just a plant, but if you can't seem to understand what i'm saying, then it just means you've never had something like this. and that's okay. i just want you to know how i feel.

i feel bad for alberto gonzales. he's a bright man, but he's gotta be the one with the daunting task of defending the president's stupid reasoning and position on his wire tapping. i was watching him try and go up against leahy and feinstein and feingold, and gonzales could barely find his words. it was great. he was probably thinking that his asshole boss doesn't pay him enough to clean up after his dirty work. also in the news is that retard who went in and hacked up those gay bar patrons, then killed a cop and whoever his passenger was. unfortunately he was shot in the head a few times and died at the hospital. i was so hoping that he would be sent to, as michael bolton says, a federal pound me in the ass prison. oh well, i guess hell will just have to do.